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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating, but yet.
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J, SeventeenWCL'S, 240808. ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM. Hotmail/Facebook Quote: If i let you know how much you really mean to me , will you take it for granted? Those words, will flood in my mind FOREVER. Etched. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? But till the moment I thought of you, negative thoughts vanished and I've realised love and feelings is what made it worth it. Tagboard
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Friday, November 27, 2009
I've believed your promises a billion of times. Stop saying you would change for me, because you don't even feel that you're at fault. Stop saying you would talk nicely to me, because it always went well on the first day but things are back to the same again the next day. Stop saying sorry if you don't mean it. All i need is your love, care & concern. All i need is you, & nothing else ! Don't you understand ? You didn't even call or sms me now, never worry at all. After this quarrel. You don't even care about me. If you are worried, or if you felt that you're at fault. You'ld have been very agitated and called me already. Or apologise to me already. But now leh ? Msn you never reply. Call you never pick up. Sms you never reply. If you really miss me, worry me. No matter how tired you would try your best to come right? Everytime your excuse is you very tired already. Then what can I say ? Want meet up with me got so hard meh ? Hard until like kena forced by me to come one. I never like force you come at 10am in the morning right ? I let you sleep until you wake up. And waited for you whole day, wishing that you'ld want to come find me. End up your reply is like "ok lor". Then say "u come leh". This only shows that you don't even feel like coming to find me . Why ? Tired lor. Sian lor. Everytime chat halfway, sms halfway say you tired don't want chat already. Everytime promise want meet me already end up say tired want go home. Everytime throw tantrum on me, then say sorry cause you tired. End up when you not tired, still the same what ? You still don't care about me. I don't see that you're THAT tired when your with your friends ? You have nightlife, yet you always tell me your tired ? Somemore, its only when your going out with me then you say you tired. You say you spent too much time with me already, want spend time with your friends. Then I never let meh ? You want go pool, let you go. You want go lunch with them, let you go. You want play game with them, let you play. In school already everyday together. I still never give you freedom meh ? Think about it, how long have you not seen me ?! How long have you not play CS with me ?! How long have you chat nicely with me ?! How long have you told me you love me ?! How long have you told me you miss me ?! SO I NO MORE DI WEI LE LA ? Ya ya, i still spend too much time with you. I still waste alot of your time. Seriously, think about it. Even mama say if a peron cares for you, they will want to see you no matter what. After not meeting for so many days. But ending leh ? And she told me she can see you don't care and 疼 wo as much as last time already. Everytime say will talk nicely to me already, END UP LEH ? Everytime ask how nice i want. At the moment you ask me, you already don't think that your wrong. Everytime cry in front of you, say i FAN. say i throw your face outside. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT WHY I WOULD CRY ? I ownself here getting all f up. Crying like shit. Wei le shen me ? GEN BEN MEI YOU REN HUI DAN XIN WO ! GROW UP AND THINK. FML. Seriously. Wednesday, November 18, 2009
FINALLY!!! Like after 92834916479164912 years already. We've finally meet up with Marysa wifey! (Y) Piccas with her xD Will get from her soon. The last time we met was like, the last paper for semester 1? Haha! Had great time spent with her, elyn laopo and the others :) They went for movie while I have to rush back to do report )))))))): Will upload the pics once i get them :D Anyway. Just got off the phone with baka (L) And mum says i tend to always smile whenever i'm on the phone with him. Everytime i'll ask like, "really??" Sometimes I don't even realise it. Maybe that's called love... *SMILING* ^_^ Okay, shall stop tao jui-ing and get on to my report. =_=lll Bye! J. Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Pair of 'willing' hands... To hold her. To protect her. To embrace her. "Willing", as i said. Whenever i'm on the train back home alone, I see those people, together like how it appeared in my dreams. That appear like how I wanted it to be. (Anw, idk how to put it in words but.. this is not the main point.) I know sometimes, people don't meant what they said. I just know, those words just came out unintentionally. But those words still insist to mumble into my mind, pestering me like 打不死的蟑螂. Because it seems too real to me that I cant stop to believe it's true. (Okay crap, it suddenly rained so heavily and i'm alone at home =_=ll And the house lights blinked once just now. Wth. Freaking freaked out, someone help me T_T_T_T_T I have a feeling minutes later, the house will blackout. Shit. SOMEONE PLS COME PEI ME ):) Sigh, no use rumbling over this kaboom situation. Anyway. Back to the topic. Someone told me before, people must trust each other to build a friendship. And people must compromise each other to build a relationship. I wonder, am I the exception that doesn't resemblence the characteristics of a typical girl. Maybe i'm different from other girls, but still. Girls are just simple mammals :) They ain't complicated, neither do they like to make things complicated. They might be a little indesicive sometimes, not wanting to understand or accept the fact that "whatever-it-is-thing" has happened. Girls dream to have a pair of hands that protects them, that holds them tightly not willing to let go. Sometimes, i think i'm quite stubborn. These questions will float inside my mind, worrying this worrying that. "Will I be a friend that people would like to hang out with?" "Do they enjoy being with me?" "Is my mum fine at home?" "Did she manage to have her lunch?" "Did he manage to have his lunch?" "What is he doing?" "Did he get home safely?" "Did he miss me?" "Will he ask these ques and worry me the same way as I do?" Sometimes, when I think twice of what people say. I could feel that they actually meant it otherwise. Its just the mask that they're wearing, it covers their real identity, their real character, their realistic form. (Interrupted, yay rain has finally stopped.) "Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end." Cherish what you have now, it will be too late for you to realise when you've already lose it. 想做一件事,就去做. 不是等到最后一刻事情发生了, 才去做. 任何事都一定要积极争取，而不能守株待兔. Because I don't believe, miracles will happen. Cherish and treasure what you have. Even when you already have it in your hands. Protect and love it all you can. I've alot alot alot of things running in my mind now, yet unexplainable and undescribable. p.s. Anyway, this post is not referring to anyone, so don't misunderstood and think too much about it. It's just some things thats running in my mind that i want to pen down on. Understood-ed? :) p.p.s. And grats ah wong for her promotion! :) Heehee. p.p.p.s. Does anyone think the same way as I do? \: -Initiations. J. Sunday, November 15, 2009
Shool today. Tsk tsk. Don't feel like going. Neither do I feel like getting out from the house. Because.... lessons end at 6 today. Sad face ): J. A song for you. This MV is super touching. Anw, this song is for you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OvTd_oUYTbA You and I - Park Bom (2NE1) No matter what happens Even when the sky is falling down I’ll promise you That I’ll never let you go Oh~~~Oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Yeah~~~ You, when I fell you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze And you, through those sad times held my hands till the end of the world I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you But today, I am singing this song just for you Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile I can see the pains from protecting me You and I together. It’s just feels so right Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others But don’t be sad Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend and someone you can lean onto I promise you that I’ll be right here baby I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you But today, I am singing this song just for you Tonight, within those two eyes and smile I can see the pains from protecting me You and I together. It’s just feels so right Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again I no longer fear when your breath holds me No one in the world can replace you You are the only one in I’ll be there for you baby You and I together, It’s just feels so right Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you You and I together, don’t ever let go my hands even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you Just you and I Forever and ever.. J. Random. A funny chat with ah tan yesterday, we wanted to eat at breeks at 1st. But due the price ah =_____=lll......... So we were walkin towards there, me: wah no ppl one ah, not nice meh the food? ah tan: lol, ex ma. then we look at our right direction, me: wah still gt space leh! ah tan: but kong de. us: LOLOLOLOL. so end up went xin wang eat. me: *drop my bag* chin chang: *pick up bag, then suay suay my keys drop out* chin chang: *pass me bag* WAH, her keys leh!!!! (you know his hyper actions la hor =_=) *pass to david* me: diao, take lor. like u know where i stay also. david & chin chang: LOL, duno we always go whose house mahjong hor. me: *second thought* OH YA LOL, like ALL OF YOU also know hor. ALL: *NOD NOD* LOLOLOL. and somehow we were chatting about school canteens. ah tan: Dont know why hor, i order food in school then the uncle always say "Boy! What you want eat?" duno why one leh. Us: LOLOLOL. ah tan: then i turn around behind also no boys one lor. all girls only. Us: LOLOLOLOL. Some uncles and aunties are like that, they don't even look at you jiu will call you boy even when your a girl, or vice versa. =_=lll So, blogskin changed. Blogsong changed. And i've got to change also. Byebyebyebyebyebye. School tomorrow. Suck. J. Saturday, November 14, 2009
Looks familiar? Just re-highlighting some. Those that i think it's true. 1-touch their waist 2-talk to them 3-share secrets 4-give her your jacket 5-kiss them slowly 6-hug her 7-hold her 8-laugh with her 9-invite her somewhere 10-let her be with you when you're with your friends 11-smile with her 12-take pics with her 13-pull her onto your lap 14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back 15-when her friends say I love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved 16-always hug her and say I love you when you see her 17-kiss her unexpectedly 18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST 19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy! 20-tell her the way you feel about her! 20 you need to show her you mean it too 21-kiss her on the lips 22-DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff (Dont really agree =.=) 23-tell her how important she is to you 24-make her feel loved 25-buy her stuff. small things can still help we might deny it but we accutally like and kinda want you to get us things 26-DON'T LIE TO HER. 27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER. 28-take her anywhere she wants 29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her 30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll knowthat she can always count on you 31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too. 32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her. 33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose;(it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them). 34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly. 35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her Remember this next time you are with her 36. When people diss her, stand up for her. 37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her. 38. Lay down under the stars and puther head on your chest so she canlisten to the steady beat of yourheart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you. 39. When walking next to each other grab her hand. 40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible 41. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams. 42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears. 43. Take her for long walks at night 44. Dedicate a song to her. 45. Always Remind her how much you love her. youll never know when she needs just a lil more love |
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